January 2018 Check-in

Wow, already the end of January.

I didn’t really set goals for January – not specific ones anyway. So we are just going to say that January was…okay. Not the greatest, but not the worst. LOL I did all my blog posts, got some quality family time, my house is mostly in order, and I’m still up and moving. I’ll call that a success.

I’m just going to keep my eyes forward, then, at this point. For February:

  • Complete all scheduled blog posts
  • Write daily – and try for some big numbers the first week of Feb while in Michigan.
  • Coursework – I’m taking a class in February, so keeping up with that is a big thing.
  • Take time for myself – beyond the typical self-care that needs to happen, some time doing something I just *want* to do, not that I have to do, is important.

And I’m going to leave it at this, this month. Baby steps and moving forward – my current motto. 🙂


Bronwyn Green | Gwendolyn Cease

Looking Back & Looking Forward

That’s about all I can say for 2017…bye bye!

It’s been a rough year – for a lot of reasons – and I’m glad to see the end of it.

I am grateful for the things I’ve learned, though, about myself, about what I want to be doing, and about what is standing in my way (Spoiler alert – I’m the thing standing in my way a lot of the time.)

I’m not going to revisit the goals I made at the beginning of 2017. I’m determined to leave the past in the past and move forward.

With that in mind, I’m going to look forward to what I want to accomplish in 2018.

Continue making self-care a priority – I did pretty well with this the past year, though toward the end, not so much. But that did make it very clear to me just how important self-care is and how necessary it is. This includes moving more, eating better, sleeping more (omg, need to sleep more!), taking time for me (whatever that looks like in the moment), and being kinder to myself.

Continue blogging regularly – We’ve got out schedule for the next year all laid out, and I’m really excited about it.

Keeping my house in order – I’ve found the better I am this, the clearer my mind is. Cluttered surrounding, cluttered brain, apparently. Hmmm, I guess this kinda falls under self-care, in a way…

Say no more often – This is where the standing-in-my-own-way thing comes in. And I’m owning it. I’m the one who says yes to everyone because I want to help, I feel guilty when I say no, etc. I’m trying to change my mind-set on this because it is okay to say no, especially when it interferes with or blocks what I want/need to be doing.

Be more positive – It is so easy to focus on the negative stuff, and I find when I do that, it’s a sickening, soul-sucking spiral, and then, I can’t see the positive at all. So, this year, I’m determined to focus on the positive as much as possibly can (Side note: I just read an article about how when we focus on the negative and complain, complain, complain, it affects your brain physically and makes negative thoughts all the more easy to process…or something like that. It’s late, I’ll admit, and my word-smithing skills are tired. LOL But the basic gist is our brains are about efficiency, so by focusing on the negative, we hardwire our brain to go down that negative path more easily.)

Write daily – Sure, some days, getting huge amounts of words isn’t going to happen, but there isn’t really a day when I can’t get at least 100 words in. I need to kick the all-or-nothing mentality, because every little bit counts. It all adds up.

Release 4 books – I’m not gonna lie…I’m tempted to make that number higher, but I’m not going to. I’m going to focus on writing four awesome books and releasing those in 2018. If I write more, great, but this is my goal.

So, bye-bye, 2017.  And, 2018…


Bronwyn Green 

November Check-in

Posting late as Thanksgiving break (kids had w, t, F off of school) has me all off…had to ask one of the kids to confirm the day for me. Lolol

anyhoo, goals for this month:

  • Keep up with self-care and taking things one day at a  time. – def doing better. 👍🏻
  • KEEP WRITING – it all adds up and it makes me happy, dammit. – while not where I want to be with this one, I have been writing more so counting this as a win.
  • Start thinking about Christmas gifts instead of leaving until the last minute…as usual. – I’ve THOUGHT about what I’m getting ppl…does that count? Haven’t done a lick of actual shopping. But hey, I said think about so going to count this one too! Lol

On to December goals. Again keeping it simple.

  • All scheduled blog posts
  • Keep up self-care
  • Write daily – even a couple sentences
  • Enjoy the holidays and time with family.

Bronwyn Green | Gwendolyn Cease

 

October Check-in

How is it the end of October already?? Time is flying by, that’s for sure.

Okay, so October… It was better than September. I’m making sure to keep up with self-care – reminding myself that it is not selfish, it’s necessary. Can’t take care of anything else, if I’m fallng apart. So, I’ve been doing well with that, and feel so much better than I was. Like I have a better handle on things now.

Still a bit crazy – that hasn’t changed. Still running around and have a lot on my plate, but am handling that better. I even managed to sit down and write a few times. And omg, did that feel amazing. It truly is my happy place and is what I want and need to be doing. Need to remember that too. 🙂

So, here’s to continuing the trend and making November better than October!

My goals for November, which are very simple, again:

  • Keep up with self-care and taking things one day at a time.
  • KEEP WRITING – it all adds up and it makes me happy, dammit.
  • Start thinking about Christmas gifts instead of leaving until the last minute…as usual.

Bronwyn Green

 

September Check-in

Warning – some brutal freaking honesty ahead.

My hopes for September being a bit calmer and allowing me time to write, were dashed pretty damned quick

I’m not going to go into a ton of detail because this isn’t the place for that – but life isn’t cooperating. Seems as though as soon as I start to get things on an even keel, something rocks it all.

Kiddos are all back in school – and the oldest has moved out (may have mentioned that in the last update…). Right now, my 10-year-old niece is living with us. She’s a sweetheart and honestly a joy, but it does make things a bit more crazy – especially at first. Things seem to be settling…*sigh* please let them be settling.

It seems like all I do anymore is run kids here and there and pick them up… I feel like I spend the entire day in the car chauffering ppl around. (I know running kids around may not seem like much, but doing it for school and work for my kids and for several of my nieces, the time in the car is ridiculous, believe me) And everything is suffering for it – my work, my writing, the house…

I don’t talk about it much, but I’ve never kept secret the fact I’ve dealt with, and still do deal with, depression. And I’d be lying if I said that the recent craziness hasn’t impacted me in that respect. I’m fine, though. Really. I know when to get help, and I won’t allow this to spiral out of control – learned that lesson a long time ago. But it IS something that is real and happening in my life at the moment. And even though, I’m working through it, it’s not always easy and it’s not as though there is a quick fix for it, ya know? After all, it didn’t get to this point overnight. Sure, some of the crazy stuff are recent developments but other things have been creeping up for a while – sneakily. I look back at my journals and blog posts for the past several months (heck most of the past year), and this isn’t a new thing. Amazing how blind one can be to something that is happening to them… Depression is a sneaky, sneaky bitch.

So… Long story short, I’m not going to look at what I’d meant to accomplish this past month, because I’m fairly certain I didn’t accomplish a single thing on that list. And I’m going to let that go – not dwell on it – because doing that isn’t going to help a thing.

As for goals for October – not really going to make goals like I normally do. Just going to promise myself I’m going to focus on self-care, doing what I need to do to take care of myself, and write. What that writing will look like – daily, weekly, whatever – I don’t know. I just know that not writing? That makes it all worse, so writing has to factor in somehow.

*Deep breath* So that’s it for me this month. Sorry for the ramble, but even writing this much down has helped. 🙂

Hugs, all.


Bronwyn Green

August Check-in

Well, I was not looking forward to this post. I was coming at it, thinking, Well shit, I didn’t really accomplish anything at all this month. Another cruddy month in a line of them. That train of thought didn’t change when I looked back at my goals for the month:

  • All August blog posts—This is one I can say I absolutely did. So that’s good.
  • Write daily—Not so much. I wrote but not daily.
  • Kick word count ass the week I’m at Bron’s house—Ha! Did not kick word count ass at Bron’s. Not at all.
  • Keep up on house and self-care stuff—Did okay here. Not 100% and not where I want to be, but doing okay.

So definitely wasn’t doing so well this month, that was for sure. Yeah, I was in full pity-party mode. 

But when I said as much, via text, to the Bron, she wouldn’t let that stand – because she is an awesome friend who doesn’t put up with my whiney, down-on-myself ass. This is the response I got:

Not true. You had a vacation, went to a con, did panels, had fun, stayed at my house and didn’t buy washi, wrote some, went to the evil dentist twice and fucking survived!

You edited.

You survived dealing with another fucking international trip, sending your kid off to college…no, two trips…

HEY

YOU RERELEASED THOSE BOOKS, BITCH

And she’s right. Just because I didn’t absolutely hit those four things from last month’s list doesn’t mean I didn’t accomplish anything.

I did have a great vaca and vist to Bron’s. The con we went to was amazing, and I did panels, even though public speaking makes me want to vom, and think I did pretty all right on them. I didn’t spend copious amounts on washi or other bujo/planner accessories that I don’t need (but are oh so pretty and I wants them).

The evil dentist…I did survive those traumatic experiences (and to be fair, my dentist is a lovely woman who has, for some reason, chosen this career path…but I have issues with dentists in general and isn’t something I’m getting over any time soon, apparently).

I edited over 200K this month (a couple times over as most of those manscripts I did two rounds on).

I survived the 17 year old traveling internationally without me for most of the month (she is home now and had a wonderful time! Such an awesome experience for her!). Am still surviving…dare I say succeeding day to day…while the hubby is on another international trip for work.

And I did send my oldest off to college. It’s not his first year, but he lived at home while attending community college the last couple years. Now, he is at a larger university and has moved out. *deep breath* I wasn’t prepared for this, even though I knew it was coming. But he is settling in and doing great so that is excellent.

And yeah! I released my Seeking Shelter series! I did that!

You can check the blurbs for these books out here.

So, that as my August. Looking forward, here are my goals for the month of September:

  • All September blog posts
  • Write daily – making it a priority, doing it first thing in the morning before I move on to other tasks. This seems to be the strategy that works best for me, so I need to actually do it.
  • Release Safeword Protected (will be announcing the specific release date very soon! Beyond excited about this. It’s like…Finally, Jarman, FINALLY! It’s a loooooooong time coming with this book.)
  • Come up with a plan/schedule for other re-releases…and start implementing said plan.
  • Keep up on house and self-care stuff.

Bronwyn Green | Torrance Sené

 

July Check-in

I didn’t make all my goals for the month. I don’t even have to look at them to know that. So, I’m just gonna check in and talk about what I did accomplish this month.

I wnt camping twice with the family. The prep sucks, and there were some not great moments…but that doesn’t matter. I had some absolutely wonderful time with my husband, my kids…even my daughter’s boyfriend came along and it was pretty nice to get to know him better and see how he fit in with the whole fam…and he really really did. 🙂

I have my house back in some kind of order. It’s certainly not perfect, and it’s not where I want it to be, but it’s closer. And after all of the hbby’s traveling, being sick while he was overseas for a month and just trying to get through each day, I was floudering and the house more than suffered because of it. And I have a very difficult time working – particularly writing – when everything is a mess around me. It’s like: surrounded by chaos=chaotic mind. But I have gotten things back on track, and I’ve been much more productive as a result. So yay!

I’ve written. Not every day as I want to, but more than I did last month or the month before. I’m making progress and that’s what matters – and I repeat that to myself on the regular.

I’ve successfully gotten things ready and packed for my family reunion this weekend, my time at Bron’s next week, and the overseas trip my daughter is taking for several weeks. Granted, the daughter is amazingly organized and did most of the prep herself, but there were still many things I (and/or hubby) had to do as well. Those are all done, and everyone is set. So that is a win, in my book.

So while I didn’t hit everything I wanted to this month, I managed to do a lot and to do more than i’ve been doing, which is a huge mental and emotional boost for me.

So, looking forward to August, my goals are

  • All August blog posts.
  • Write daily.
  • Kick word count ass the week I’m at Bron’s house.
  • Keep up on house and self-care stuff.

Bronwyn Green

June Check-in – Halfway Through 2017…

How on earth is it halfway through 2017??

I don’t even know how to start this post. I guess the best way is to just be honest about it, eh? This year hasn’t been a great one as far as writing goes. Finding the balance still continues to be a challenge for me. To the point that I was seriously considering just quitting. Not writing anymore.  I wasn’t in a good place. All I saw were all the obstacles to writing, and I wasn’t seeing a way around them at all. All I could think of were the books and projects I’d promised and hadn’t delivered on… Felt a bit hopeless, to be honest, and thought it’d just be better to stop trying and failing.

But I’m pretty damned lucky with the people I have in my life. Besides having a great husband who let me vent and cry when frustrated and sad and overwhelmed, I have an amazing group of friends. I just got back from an annual writing retreat with four of those awesome friends. While I didn’t break any records on words writing while there, it was exactly what I needed.

I had distance from everything that was pulling at me and making it hard to think straight. I was with other writers who face just as many, if not more, challenges as I do making writing fit in their lives. I had time to relax and just be. And I had the opportunity to be a writer. To remind myself that this is who I am. And to remember that I’m allowed to put writing first. I’m allowed to say no to other things. I’m allowed to do something for me.

So that’s it, really. I’m not going to focus on words/pages/scenes written the past six months (or not written). I’m looking forward…with the knowledge that I’m going to be a writer again. I get to take the next six months of the year making writing my priority again.

With that in mind, I’ve set some goals for myself for the next half of 2017. No looking back, just looking ahead.

  • Write daily. And make it first! I will work on my writing first thing after I wake, before I jump into all the other stuff. I’m not focusing on the numbers here. Just writing daily – building that habit again.
  • Get back to the self-care routine I had. Yeah, that’s another thing that went by the wayside when things got nuts. Probably not a coincidence things just kept getting worse when I really wasn’t taking care of myself at all. Time to get back on that.
  • Complete all scheduled blog posts.
  • Reach out when things do get overwhelming. Shouldering it myself and isolating myself sure as hell doesn’t help. Need to do things differently.


Bronwyn Green | Deelylah Mullin |Torrance Sené

May Check-in

It’s already the last Friday of May…not sure how that happened.

I’m not even going to bother putting up my goals for the month. Because damn. It’s been a hellish month for many reasons.

Since it doesn’t work that way, I’m just going to move forward. So, here are my goals for June:

  • Write. Just write. Not going to put a specific number of words or pages or even project here. My goal is to get back to writing. Putting it back on the priority list as things get back to normal.
  • Get back on track with house and self-care stuff.
  • All scheduled June blog posts.

And that’s it. I have other things I want to do, but right now, I’m so…so out of the norm that I think focusing on these three things is enough. They’ll help re-lay the foundation and I’ll be able to do more moving forward.


Bronwyn Green | Deelylah Mullin

April Check-in

Happy last Friday of April! I’m currently sitting in the Orlando airport – heading back home after a short getaway with the hubby. A much needed one. We don’t often get to take time away together. So when he had a conference in Orlando and asked if I wanted to tag alone, I said yes before he was even done asking. Especially as he’ll be traveling for work most of the next month and I won’t be seeing him *sad panda*

It’s been a lovely little vaca, and as I said, much, MUCH needed, but I’m ready to get back home and get back to work.

So…time to check in. Here were my goals for April (I’m actually a bit afraid to look at this as it’s been a weird month and I feel as though I’ve accomplished nothing.)

  • Publish Safeword Protected – Going to be cutting it way close on this one. It *may* end up being the first week of May. Not happy about that. Kinda pissed at myself, to be perfectly honest. 

  • Complete Into the Deep – Yeah, we’re not even going to talk about this one.  No “kinda” about it…pissed at myself.

  • Self-care and house stuff – This, I’ve actually kept up on. 

  • Complete all scheduled April blog posts – Including this post…DONE.
  • Complete May newsletter short – Still a work in progress. But will be done soon, in time for our May newsletter. 
  • Keep Writing & Publishing and Marketing bujos updated – Done

  • Come up with a reasonable writing schedule for the next couple months (Keyword: REASONABLE, Jarman!) – I’m still working on this. Mostly because my life schedule (or all the schedules that impact my life – hubby’s work/travel, kids’ school schedules…) will be drastically changing in the next couple weeks with hubby’s travel and the  kids finishing up school, etc.) But I’m making progress. 

 

Overall, I’m not super happy with April.

But not going to dwell. Going to move forward. So, goals for May… I’m going super duper simple this month.

  • Write daily – doesn’t matter if it’s only a paragraph. Heck a sentence. But writing DAILY.
  • Keep up on self-care and house stuff
  • All scheduled May blog posts
  • Complete short for May newsletter.

Bronwyn Green | Deelylah Mullin | Gwendolyn Cease | Torrance Sené